Gus Dur died

This is not a story about politics or anything close to it, it is a story of my father.

Another former president of Indonesia, KH Abdurrahman Wahid, passed away a few hours ago. I am not really a fan of this man, but, I have to admit that he is one a great guy, very clever man and indeed a kind and humble person. He received many honours from Indonesia and even other countries as well. He i one of the big leaders and respectful figure.

I cried quietly and sadly as i watched the news. Another great leader has gone and so is my memory of my father. It slowly fades away. The political figures when my father was still around are one by one passing away, bringing my memories of my father too. Suharto has passed away and now Gus Dur. My father and i used to talk about politics and i liked to ask him things like who this man is and who that figure is. That is why parts of my memories of him include political figures.

We were very closed and i miss his absence very much until now. I become sad when a figure from my father's period died. It feels like a part of memories also died with it. and i am very afraid that there will be no more memories left for me to remember my father.

I wonder sometimes if he hears or knows this kind of news from where he is now. Far away from Indonesia to be certain. Will he remember me when he hears this kind of news like i remember him? Will he miss me too like i miss him now?

My dear father, if only you could read this and remember me. I wish someday you could miss me very much and find me.

I miss you Dad